Monday, August 2, 2010
Broken
I gave you my heart
And all my love
You just told me
It wasnt enough
You asked for more
And I gave that to you
There was nothing
I wouldn't do for you
When I was at my weakest
You put me down
When I was on my knees
You kicked me to the ground
You spit on me
And called me names
Saying it was my fault
I was the on to blame
Your tore out my heart
And stepped on it too
But still all the shattered pieces
Won't let go of their love for you
Monday, July 26, 2010
Spooning Moon
It's a spooners moon tonight
So grab a loved one and hold them tight
Kiss them gently, sweetly, soft
Tell them that you love them lots
Whisper softly in their ear
The things that they long to hear
It's a spooners moon tonight
Don't ruin it with a silly fight
Lovingly caress their hair
Tell them without them this world you could not bear
Fill the silence with loving words
That for years they have not often heard
It's a spooners moon tonight
Time to make all your wrongs right
Give them comfort they have longed for, for years
Slowly kiss away all their tears
Now you two shall become one
And may all your past transgressions become undone
Remember it's a spooners moon tonight
And your futures are shining bright
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Masquerade
Hide your feelings
Behind your mask
Don't reveal them
Even if they ask
Keep what you think
Inside your head
Without emotions
You become the living dead
The world is our masquerade
Welcome to our demented parade
Keep your heart hidden
From everyone concealed
Keep it a secret
Never to be revealed
Become someone else
Because your not good enough
Manipulate their feelings
To get their love
The world is our masquerade
Watch your true self fade
Wear a disguise
Don't come as you are
Just like in poker
You must learn to hold the cards
It may seem immoral
But you'll love my twisted game
You'll realize you have been playing for years
Under a different name
The world is a masquerade
How easy you were to persuade
Don't doubt me now
Your conscience is already gone
Do you realize now?
What you have been doing is wrong
You have manipulated and played
With people too naive to resist
They don't realize they are in love
With someone who doesn't even exist
The world is YOUR masquerade
Now that you have lied and betrayed
You were perceived as an angel
But have recently fell
Burning in your glory
In the dark pits of hell
Now I have your soul
And rightfully so
You played the friend
But in reality were the foe
Welcome to MY masquerade
Realize YOUR twisted fate
Who am I? You ask
Oh can't you see?
I'm am Satan
And the devil is me
You have followed my whispers
And now are trapped
You will be my puppet
Cause integrity you lacked
Oh welcome to my masquerade
Where no one will come to your aid
Behind your mask
Don't reveal them
Even if they ask
Keep what you think
Inside your head
Without emotions
You become the living dead
The world is our masquerade
Welcome to our demented parade
Keep your heart hidden
From everyone concealed
Keep it a secret
Never to be revealed
Become someone else
Because your not good enough
Manipulate their feelings
To get their love
The world is our masquerade
Watch your true self fade
Wear a disguise
Don't come as you are
Just like in poker
You must learn to hold the cards
It may seem immoral
But you'll love my twisted game
You'll realize you have been playing for years
Under a different name
The world is a masquerade
How easy you were to persuade
Don't doubt me now
Your conscience is already gone
Do you realize now?
What you have been doing is wrong
You have manipulated and played
With people too naive to resist
They don't realize they are in love
With someone who doesn't even exist
The world is YOUR masquerade
Now that you have lied and betrayed
You were perceived as an angel
But have recently fell
Burning in your glory
In the dark pits of hell
Now I have your soul
And rightfully so
You played the friend
But in reality were the foe
Welcome to MY masquerade
Realize YOUR twisted fate
Who am I? You ask
Oh can't you see?
I'm am Satan
And the devil is me
You have followed my whispers
And now are trapped
You will be my puppet
Cause integrity you lacked
Oh welcome to my masquerade
Where no one will come to your aid
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Demonic Angel
she looks down at her tattered wings
and thinks about what could have been
before she had this last regret
Before she commited her last sin
when she thinks about her past
it almost seems unreal
she was so different then
back when her emotions she could feel
Her heart has since hardend
black and as cold as ice
Broken beyond repair
Yet you can see the fire behind her eyes
Her only thoughts are of vengence
its the only reason she is still alive
her past she just cant get over
she feeds off of the anger to survive
she ravages for blood
her past lost in tears
she has forgoten her humanity
she has forgotten her fears
No longer human
He made her this way
She fell to easily
And became his prey
Theres no going back
She gave him her soul
She gave in to the devil
And fell down his dark hole
She gave him everything
And he gave nothing in return
Just left her with anger and regret
It was a hard lesson to learn
So the demonic angel
Cried tears of blood
cause she lost the only one
she had ever loved
Moving On
I found a poem that I wrote when I was 14 It kinda fits my situation now.
Hey boy
Now listen to me
Your not everything
I had hoped you'd be
We were just friends
But I'd hoped to be more
I was just waiting
For you to open that door
But you refused
And that's too bad
It's your loss
Cause I'm the best thing you could have ever had
While it lasted
It was fun
I just didn't expect
For you to run
Now there's no more crying
No more tears
No more insecurites
No more fears
To better things
I'm moving on
Wasting my time
Feels so wrong
Monday, July 19, 2010
Sweet dreams
Sweet dreams, the day is done
The moon is here to say goodnight to the sun
Gather your blankets and climb into bed
Close your eyes and lay down your head
Rest now with peaceful dreams
Of twinkling stars and shining moonbeams
Sweet dreams my darling, sweet dreams my love
Sweet dreams my precious gift from above
Reina's Lullaby
Let the stars align in your eyes
Kiss the night goodbye
Let go of your childish fears
And know that I am here
I will watch you while you sleep
May only good dreams you keep
For I will love you forever
As long as we are together
So shut your eyes and dream away
And wish for a better day
May my love find its way to you
And angels watch you all the night through
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Baby girl
Baby girl I need you
I cry for you every night
I just want you in my arms
So I can hold you tight
Baby girl I need you
Every night I pray
For god to give you back to me
Or to have let you stay
Baby girl I need you
I have wanted you for so long
My heart lies with you
and your hearts gentle song
Baby girl I need you
You were my everything
I dont want to know
what life with out you could bring
Baby girl I need you
But I will have to let you go for now
God give the strength
Cause I don't know how
So baby girl go be an angel
I have to put you to rest
You will always be in my heart
But sometimes god knows best
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
the only one I want
Tears running down my face
as I said today would be the last time
you said you loved me
I said nothing
you said you would miss me
Again I said nothing
just said it hurt to much
hurt to much to come see you
see you in such an awful place
my heart pounding out its own defense
telling me not to do this
that i loved you too
But i wouldnt listen
not after how you hurt me
I would never be so weak again
I'm with someone else now
But its unfair to him
That when I kiss him
I only feel you
I only want to feel you.
he is just a distraction
To keep my mind from finding out
What my heart already knows
I'm still not over you
No matter how I try
I cant get you out of my head
you are the only one i want
without you
You smile your touch
Your hug your kiss
These are the things
I will forever miss
for right now you have been
taken away from me
I didnt see this coming
How could this be?
It feels like yesterday
I was in your arms
you winning me over
With your good looks and charms
Laying next to me
all through the night
You cuddled closer
and my heart took flight
Now I reach over
And your no longer there
The pain of the change
I cannot bear
No longer feeling love
I now feel fear
It feels so wrong
with out you here
A new Life
Growing in my womb
but with out you these four walls
Feel like a tomb
Your child will never
know who you are
cause the life you chose
Led you behid bars
Love behind bars
Love through Bars
You know i should hate you
For all you have done
my healing process
has only begun
what i feel for you
was built on lies
but that was lost on me
Staring into those deep brown eyes
to fall out of love
i would do anything
But Im Afriad
What a life with out you could bring
I just cant Forget
Your Deep Kiss
that still lingers
on my lips
Each touch
A Memory
giving me a Glimpse
Of what life could be
But that all went away
At the drop of a dime
your now in jail
Doing your time
So for now i will love you
Through the bars and the glass
because My heart
Just Cant forget the past